I totally get that initial shock, Deviant Moon hits different because it strips away all the pretty spiritual bypassing we’re used to! What helped me was starting with single-card pulls instead of full spreads, letting myself adjust to that raw energy gradually. Maybe talk with the unsettling imagery first, asking what each grotesque detail wants to show you before even looking at traditional meanings. Give it a try, embracing the creepiness instead of fighting it makes those harsh truths land softer somehow.