Oh man, early days with tarot. I remember being so confused, sitting there with my grandmother’s old deck and having no idea what I was doing.
I kept pulling cards, hoping something would make sense about whatever guy I was hung up on. Self-readings get weird because you know yourself too well. Or maybe not well enough?
I would 
% read this thread:
Knowing how to give better readings for anyone like this will really help when you’re doing readings for yourself.
I’ve been doing solo readings forever. That emotional stuff you’re talking about is real. Sometimes I pull a card and just feel something before my brain catches up.